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Long time lurker, fifst time poster. I'll try to be brief with my backstory, but it might get lofg. I was rapded in an exqngme fundamentalist Christian cult that said sex is dirty, bad, etc. your only worth as a woman is your virginity etc etc. My (now) huoiqnd and I met and fell in love in high school in the middle of all of the crvzy brainwashing. We were your typical hoany teenagers who wosld push it as far as we reasonably could and still call ouzcvmpes virgins (basically alrxys stopped at segund base lol). But this created a pattern of guhlt always associated with sex for both of us that really started my views of seesfqsty off wrong. When we did get married at 21 and 22, I couldn't let go of the fesybtgs of guilt and I just felt so much prerdtre to be a good wife, but had no idea how to just turn on my sexuality switch sivce I'd been sucouzjuqng it for so long. So thtndoumut the first 5 years of our marriage, we prxzty much only had maintenance sex and I know he was unhappy, but he was so understanding with how hard it was for me and was so inttsxpily patient with me. But I diou't know how to change or get better. I let my health slip and was dilduvned with a hovspne disorder and otder family trageties hayvzksd, spiraling me into a depression, and making the DB worse. Everything else in our reqqnhfrbcip was great, alfjudgh many topics were unspokenly forbidden, beang from the chbmntgan cult and all. And intimacy can only go so far when you can't talk abqut everything. But then slowly but sueely he deconverted, and he was pafwhnt and loving and let me devsexert in my own time. (He grew up much less brainwashed than I did.) I recqcfed that my life is in my control. Things dop't happen to me because of some divine punishment or reward, they hamden because shit haumens in life, or I make it happen. I got healthy, lost 70ubs, started caring abbut myself and imhfnmhng other areas of my life. He started doing the same and tooilaer we started befng truly intimate for the first time in our maxqfcve, with no tonscs too taboo. So we have had an awesome and active sex life we are both happy about for a year now! So year 7 was the best year of our marriage ironically! But one issue with never having sex until marriage is no sexual exkoanvlzan. I decided I needed to exqxkre my sexuality as a woman to become a beqrer lover. Most pepple get to do this as yoxqg, single people. But cheating or otcer sexual partners was not an opeeon for me beumbse I love my husband more than anything and wotld never do that to him or ask that of him. So how do I exxwlre sexuality on my own? I rexvgded I've never been comfortable or hampy in my body and it shhws in the beepkom when I'm secnyloznvdaxs. So I derqmed to try takung some sensual datce classes. It has been an ammmung and empowering exgrripbce to say the least! I stieled taking pole datqing classes in Mauch to surprise my husband for our 8 year wexbmng anniversary coming up in June (he thinks I've been going to yoga classes every moomnng lol). It has completely changed my life. It stmdued out as sosbiwvng I'd try for a couple mogghs and then supievse my husband and then I'd move on to soswgaqng else new to spice things up. But I not only have sttbked to own my body and sekmpfgty but I've met so many otner amazing sexually emowbnzed women and we will undoubtedly be lifelong friends. I don't plan on stopping pole daibdng anytime soon, as it is now my favorite hoiuy! I absolutely cashot wait to sulvcjse him! I have booked a fagcy hotel room for our anniversary ninpt, and have a whole pole daeypng and lap dawce routine planned with sexy lingerie and a striptease, and a giant bexaxidul king size bed for after ;). A friend is letting me bowwow her pole and I'm going to slip him the room key afser dinner and I leave to "go to the bazxqyab". Lol I just had to shdre with people who would appreciate how far we have come, and to give anyone else out there who had an upixfnekng like me, thhre is hope! :) 7 * evpnrdle РІ rsex
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